spring break 2011

after having every single plan I had fall through....I ended up staying in Logan for spring break.
First...I wanted to go to Cali. that failed.
then I was supposed to go to Vegas for the WAC...that failed.
Then I was going to go to Vegas again, also failed...yet again. (currently still trying to go actually, but I doubt that will happen)
But honestly, I dont know if I would trade anything for the spring break I had. Even though I didnt go on a cruise, or to Cancun, or to California, or even to Nevada I have still had so much fun, and its only a little over half over!
Cruising,
running around my sorority house because there is absolutely no one here...(which I love, no girls to clean up after, the kitchen is clean for once!)
Riding my horse
hot tubbing
staying up until the crack of dawn with my sisters and friends, just because.
Getting 2 hours of sleep for two nights straight, and the next day not being able to even stand up for long periods of time. (true story)
going to the Justin Bieber movie.
Laughing until I cant anymore.
I guess this spring break has taught me that you dont need all the bells and whistles in life to have fun.  You actually dont even need hardly anything.  Just your friends. :)

We are all a little weird 

and life's a little weird, 

and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, 

we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love ♥

Those silly little things.

Life is full of decisions. 

big ones,

little ones,

almost too many decisions. 

but I guess what I just really realized today was that

all those little things that I dont think that will matter later,

they probably will.

 Because I feel like little things turn into big things, and then those big things have a huge impact on my life

for example.

The choice to be happy.  for some it may be hard, and for some it may be easy.  but I feel like its such a minor detail to some people.

but any decision you make has to do with being happy. 

getting married

getting a job

deciding a major

but yet when you ask people what they have their focus on, its their job, or their home life, or something else.  

but I feel like no one is worried about being happy.

Its such a basis for everything. 

every. single. thing. 

If you decide to go into a certain profession, its because it will hopefully make you happy...right? 

But i guess my point is that people find it so hard to be happy when there is so much to be happy about!

Do you have a home?

Do you have people that love you?

Do you have food to eat today?

Do you have clean water to drink?

Are you alive?

So much to be happy and thankful for, yet for some reason half of the population is suffering from chronic depression and anxiety. 

And Im not saying Im not a victim of this, because I was depressed most of last semester.  

I guess its just a lesson i have to remind myself of every single day:

No one can choose when Im happy or when Im not. 

I need to be thankful for what I have, not whine about what I dont. 
I need to love those around me.  You never know how hard of a day someone has had.

I have to stop focusing on things that dont matter.  I feel like im making a continuous circle, once I think Im finally out of my rut and I fall right back into it again.  I see the past and all my mistakes as a flaw, rather than a learning experience.
God is watching out for me. I know that. and I will be happy because I choose to be, and I will make decisions that make me happy, and not be so concerned about what other people think.
Today, tomorrow, forever.
Im choosing to be happy :) come what may.

These days.

Just sitting here in my room, thinking. about everything. 
I have learned over the past 3 years to not trust anyone, because everyone I trusted has ended up stabbing me in the back. 
But as I was talking to one of my sisters in my room just now, and as she walked out she was like, "okay, Im going to go to my room. I love you!"  And I know this is not the first time one of my sisters has said that, but it really made me realize how special my sisters are, and how much they mean to me.  I was telling someone the other day, "I dont know how people have fun if they arent Greek, I mean, what do you do on the weekends with your roommates? or how do you meet people" and of course I know if you arent greek you still have fun, but I honestly dont even understand how someone wouldnt want to go greek.  By joining, you instantly have an awesome group of people there that love you.  Not only do I adore being in Alpha Chi Omega, its pretty much my entire life.  I live it, eat it, and breathe it.  It has been such a huge learning experience, and it has changed me for the better. It has challenged me to be a good leader, to be an example, and has given me the confidence to be who I am no matter what.
Alright, now that I have ranted about how much I love my sorority, its time for bed :)

  And if this post is a little random, I apologize, but its just my thoughts, yet again.

live by this.

Health: 

1.       Drink plenty of water. 
2.       Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar. 
3.       Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.. 
4.       Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy 
5.       Make time to pray and read the Bible every day
6.       Play more games 
7.       Read more books than you did in 2010 . 
8.       Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day 
9.       Sleep for 7 hours. 
10.     Take a 10-30 minute walk daily. And while you walk, smile. 

Personality: 

11.    Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 
12.    Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in positive things, where you can make a difference. 
13.    Don't over do. Know your limits. 
14.    Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does!
15.    Don't waste your precious energy on gossip. 
16.    Dream more while you are awake 
17.    Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.. 
18.    Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness. 
19.    Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others. 
20.    Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present. 
21.    No one is in charge of your happiness except you. 
22.    Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.  Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime. 
23.    Smile and laugh more. 
24.    You don't have to win every argument. It’s ok if you agree to disagree... 

Society: 

25.    Call your family often. 
26.    Each day give something good to others. 
27.    Forgive everyone for everything. 
28.    Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of  6. 
29.    Try to make at least three people smile each day. 
30.    What other people think of you is none of your business. 
31.    Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch. 

Life: 

32.    Do the right thing! 
33.    Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. 
34.    GOD provides healing for everything, in His time.
35.    However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36.    No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up. 
37.    The best is yet to come. 
38.    When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it. 
39.    Happy people live longer. So, be happy.

status, where you are in the popularity contest. 

Im over it.

Im over trying to be friends with people who push me away. 

people who exclude others.  

people who dont like me because of what I do,

what I say, 

or who I am. 

Im going to be friends with people who accept me for the person I am now, was last week, month, whatever, who I will always be. 

Im done. Im so frustrated with it, I left that all behind in high school. 

aparently some people havent.

That isnt what Im about, or what I want to turn into. 

This is one of the reasons I love Alpha Chi Omega so much.

Its something real.

Something that every single woman should or can be.

Love love love.