Wednesday, March 9, 2011

spring break 2011

after having every single plan I had fall through....I ended up staying in Logan for spring break.
First...I wanted to go to Cali. that failed.
then I was supposed to go to Vegas for the WAC...that failed.
Then I was going to go to Vegas again, also failed...yet again. (currently still trying to go actually, but I doubt that will happen)
But honestly, I dont know if I would trade anything for the spring break I had. Even though I didnt go on a cruise, or to Cancun, or to California, or even to Nevada I have still had so much fun, and its only a little over half over!
running around my sorority house because there is absolutely no one here...(which I love, no girls to clean up after, the kitchen is clean for once!)
Riding my horse
hot tubbing
staying up until the crack of dawn with my sisters and friends, just because.
Getting 2 hours of sleep for two nights straight, and the next day not being able to even stand up for long periods of time. (true story)
going to the Justin Bieber movie.
Laughing until I cant anymore.
I guess this spring break has taught me that you dont need all the bells and whistles in life to have fun.  You actually dont even need hardly anything.  Just your friends. :)

Sunday, March 6, 2011

We are all a little weird 
and life's a little weird, 
and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, 
we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love ♥

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Those silly little things.

Life is full of decisions. 
big ones,
little ones,

almost too many decisions. 
but I guess what I just really realized today was that
all those little things that I dont think that will matter later,
they probably will.
 Because I feel like little things turn into big things, and then those big things have a huge impact on my life
for example.
The choice to be happy.  for some it may be hard, and for some it may be easy.  but I feel like its such a minor detail to some people.
but any decision you make has to do with being happy. 
getting married
getting a job
deciding a major
but yet when you ask people what they have their focus on, its their job, or their home life, or something else.  
but I feel like no one is worried about being happy.
Its such a basis for everything. 
every. single. thing. 
If you decide to go into a certain profession, its because it will hopefully make you happy...right? 

But i guess my point is that people find it so hard to be happy when there is so much to be happy about!
Do you have a home?
Do you have people that love you?
Do you have food to eat today?
Do you have clean water to drink?
Are you alive?
So much to be happy and thankful for, yet for some reason half of the population is suffering from chronic depression and anxiety. 
And Im not saying Im not a victim of this, because I was depressed most of last semester.  
I guess its just a lesson i have to remind myself of every single day:
No one can choose when Im happy or when Im not. 
I need to be thankful for what I have, not whine about what I dont. 
I need to love those around me.  You never know how hard of a day someone has had.

I have to stop focusing on things that dont matter.  I feel like im making a continuous circle, once I think Im finally out of my rut and I fall right back into it again.  I see the past and all my mistakes as a flaw, rather than a learning experience.
God is watching out for me. I know that. and I will be happy because I choose to be, and I will make decisions that make me happy, and not be so concerned about what other people think.
Today, tomorrow, forever.
Im choosing to be happy :) come what may.