Friday, December 31, 2010

Goodbye 2010.

So...Here we go. Goodbye to another year, hello to a new one.  
Heres the last blog post Im sending out for 2010
read it, and love it or hate it!
Honestly, if I look back on it, 2010 was a complete blur.  
I laughed so hard I cried,
and cried until I couldnt anymore.
Went back to where I was born and realized I missed it so much there it hurt.
I had the best summer of my life, and met some of the best friends I could ever have.
and realized that I really need to changed some things in my life.

But just like the rest of my life, it was crazy, beautiful, and a learning experience.

I have alot of plans for the next year.  One of my best friends comes home next december, and I couldnt be happier.  I never realized how awful it was to lose someone who I considered a great friend for two years. 

 but I know I cant say that I didnt have a fantastic year, because I did. The people that surround me, the things that I have, there was so much to love.  2010 was tough, but it really taught me a lot. 
Lets make a toast
see ya next year!
Chelsea Rae

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

its a picture kind of day.

its just one of those moments where pictures just describe how I feel.

Ill update later. :) love love love.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Forever. :)

Home is where you are,
Kind of tragic that I left your side.
Left your side, left your side.
I recall a smile, a kiss.
When the sun did rise,
By your side, I was by your side.
I gotta tell you how it feels now.
You’re my air, when I feel I can’t breathe.
Catching me, when I’m tripping over my feet.
We’ll get through this together.
You’re my smile, when I just want to cry.
Make it all better as you kiss my sad eyes.
I’m giving you my forever and ever.
Forever and ever.
Forever and ever.
The hug, the kiss, the love.
All the magic that we’re feeling inside,
Deep inside, deep inside.
It’s hard to find the words,
The courage is somewhere inside,
Deep inside, deep inside.
Gotta tell you how it feels now,
I’m ready to fall.
You’re my air, when I feel I can’t breathe.
Catching me, when I’m tripping over my feet.
We’ll get through this together.
You’re my smile, when I just want to cry.
Make it all better as you kiss my sad eyes.
I’m giving you my forever and ever.
Forever and ever.
Forever and ever.
Sat down thought about it today,
If I only had a breath what would I want to say?
Something sweet, something real, something real sweet.
Thought real hard.
And only one thing,
Oh only one thing, came to me.
You’re my air, when I feel I can’t breathe.
Catching me, when I’m tripping over my feet.
We’ll get through this together.
You’re my smile, when I just want to cry.
Make it all better as you kiss my sad eyes.
I’m giving you my forever.
You’re my air, when I feel I can’t breathe.
Catching me, when I’m tripping over my feet.
We’ll get through this together.
You’re my smile, when I just want to cry.
Make it all better as you kiss my sad eyes.
I’m giving you my forever and ever.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!

Today: I will count not the presents under the tree, but all the blessings God has given me.

Yet another year has come and gone, and yet I still feel like I should still be 5 years old, running down the stairs to see all the presents santa has left for me.  But even though my roles have switched a little bit, and I am the one giving the gifts to the 5 year old, this I think has been one of the best Christmases(...not really sure how to spell that. you know what I mean) yet.  I really just felt the true feeling of giving this year, seeing Beka open her presents and giving my parents gifts this year just felt so great. So christmas was great, and life is good. :) 

Im missing my Alpha Chi sisters so much, but I love being with my family.  its always bittersweet going home because living with my sisters has become a second home, but I will see them again soon!

This story has to do with christmas...sortof. and God's plans.  So, just read it, and love it like I did :)

Trees That Wood
Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said, "Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty."
Then the second tree said, "Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."
Finally the third tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me."
After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter" ... and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.
At the second tree a woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree, I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.
When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree so I'll take this one", and he cut it down.
When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for. The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The third tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark. The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.
Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time. Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace" and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.
Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.
The moral of this story is that when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined. We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Just another day.

Twitter has become my new favorite thing. I follow not only my friends, but I follow "The Daily Love" and "The Single Woman" which is just full of inspirational quotes and such. Anyways, I dont really know where I was going with that but I just love it, its my new favorite thing to do when I have nothing else to do! It inspires me daily to be a better person and gives me confidence to go throughout my day.

The Daily Love:

Today is the Winter Solstice & Lunar Eclipse... Great day to let go of anything that doesn't serve your greatest happiness!

SURROUND yourself with ppl who have your BEST INTEREST in mind. Life is too short to put up with fools.

"I am amazed by how many individuals mess up every new day with yesterday." - Gary Chapman

You can't live a life of your dreams if you don't take action. Your dreams live outside your comfort zone.

Just some great quotes to get you through the day. Ill blog more later, Im trying to do too many things at once :)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Something Ive Realized.

Ive been doing something lately that I would like to call "detoxing" my life.
Something that I have never done before, but Im loving it so far. I started with going through my clothes and closet (which still isnt done by the way) and throwing out all of the things I never wear. Honestly, I do laundry once a week and half of my clothes or more than half are still in my closet when I say "I have NOTHING to wear" but really, I do. Anyways. So thats the first thing. Second thing, I went and bought fruit, and healthy stuff to eat so I am not constantly eating junk. Because believe me, thats what I do best.
But that is only the beginning.
I am more than unhappy with my grades this semester. I felt like I tried so hard, and I ended up with the worst grades I have ever had. I studied for hours on end for astronomy, and I got nothing back from it. I dont know what I want to do with my life, so I hated going to all of my classes. I didnt listen, but honestly, I dont even know what I was doing. Facebook, sure. But I really dont even know what I was doing there.
I am not happy.
This semester is one big blur. I dont really even remember what I even learned in my classes now, I have purged everything. So essentially I have paid 2,000 for nothing, or terrible grades and an awful semester. whichever you prefer. The only thing I will never forget--Harrison Klieners class. He was the best professor ever. He was one who did inspire me, and I think that is why I am "detoxing." I have the rest of my life to be out of college. work, and whatever. I am going to live it up as much as I can. Im going to remember what I did, and take classes I want to take. There will be classes I dont like, but that means Im one step closer to the major/job that I want. I want to read good books, and "party" all night long. I want look back on this time and remember what I learned and have pictures of memories that will last a life time. From now on, there is no hurry. I just want to have the time of my life, before I grow up and get too old to do those things :)

I woke up today and realized that I havent been happy for a really long time. Ive built up walls around myself so no one, not even my friends could come in. I had a chance to fall in love, and I turn it away. Ive been jumping from guy to guy for months. They dont want a relationship, well that is completely okay because I cant let anyone inside my walls because im afraid they will hurt me like I have been hurt before. Im scared to love because being vulnerable is something I cant handle anymore. Being told Im pretty or nice or smart is something I just dismiss and I tell myself they are saying because they are nice. I dont have any self confidence anymore, and I hate everything about the way I look. "Ill be happy if..." has been running through my head constantly--
if I lose ten pounds
If i get a boyfriend
if I go shopping for new clothes
If I have designer jeans
If I have the right hairstyle
if i have the perfect makeup

no more. Im doing what I love, and loving what I do, come what may.
My walls may not be coming down just yet, but I sure as hell wont be as hesitant to pull them down. If I don't an opportunity to pass me by to fall in love, or find another best friend.
Next semester my goal is a 4.0. I can do it. I know I can. Watch me. I will do everything to the best of my ability, and even if I dont quite make it to a 4.0, I will still do better than I did this semester right?
Anyways. This may just be me ranting on about whatever. But thats what a blog is for right? Riley Jo is to thank for the picture, I read her blog today and it was just another eye opener about what I should be doing with my life. Instead of just going through the motions. I only have one life, and one time to make it count. This is me throwing my passion into everything I do. Right. Now.

Friday, December 17, 2010

My year in pictures :) 2010

So many great memories :) goodbye 2010!

Semester 3

The semester of hell. DONE! Tomorrow I take my last final at 9:30 (which should be easy) and then I am done with this awful semester. Its been the hardest semester yet, and Im so glad to see it go. I have been waiting for this exact time to come since about September. YAY! :)
AXO has been the highlight of my semester, with the newly initiated 24 girls, two of which were some of my best friends before they joined. Im so happy for them! We also have a new exec board, with me as your VP Fraternity Relations :) I will be handling all of the buisness with the Alumnae and Chapter Consultants. Im so excited to be on exec, I think that being on it will better my leadership skills and strengthen my love for the already wonderful organization I am in. I also hold the position of Member at Large, so I will make decisions about recruitment and such for the chapter. the next few upcoming semesters will be busy, but fun! Im stoaked.
The USU equestrian team is just about the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love it so much and riding horses is something I have always enjoyed doing, which makes it so much better! I hope to continue riding for the team and helping the team do well at meets. I love all of my teammates so much and they are so great to me :) Although I have to raise 550 dollars to be on the team I hope to do that plus more, I just love it!!!! :)
I am taking career and life planning next semester, so hopefully I get my life figured out from there...:) I have been struggling the past couple of semesters, but its only progress progress progress from here. Life is great, and God is taking care of me.
Sorry that I have been so awful at updating this, I have been so busy twitter and FB is all I can keep up with :)
Love you all!